oblivious

I am trying to convince myself that I am not sitting here blogging solely for the purpose of avoiding studying for physics. I wish I could crawl into a hole and die. I feel the same as when I broke up with my boyrfriend: If the earth were to open up and swallow me whole, I would not mind one bit. Infact, I would give thanks.

I am also trying to convince myself that I am not sitting here blogging solely for the purpose of avoiding the gungie greasy white trash school children with which I share the 3:30pm bus ride home.

Other things I am NOT avoiding:
The bloody-freezing minus 25 degrees of winter hellishness
Going home to a dirty kitchen and an empty fridge (partly my fault)
Spending another Friday night home, most likely alone or pretending to be invisible to my sister and her boyfriend
The pile of homework I have accumulated, which grows exponentially by a power of three daily
My boring ugly colorless-rent-a-home-so-you-can't-paint-it room

Yup. I am not avoiding those things. Don't even know why they came to mind.

Ok I had a heated discussion with someone about this last night. Is it wrong to make out with your sig.other in a restaurant? He said if he ever walked in and saw me making out with some guy in a restaurant he would do something to make me very embarrassed and my life very miserable. I smiled and swirled my straw in my marguerita and thought "Not if it was you..." I love this phase of the game, when they don't know...