All The Wrong Keys

I've decided that it's time to bust out of my comfort zone, and do a few things that scare the shit out of me.

Namely, performing again. I used to love it, then all of a sudden it terrified me. Need to get over that. I'm not 100% sure how yet, but I'm thinking baby steps. I'm going to see if I can jam with some friends who perform at a lounge I used to work at, and then maybe I'll do a duet or something. I just want to sing though, I'm not ready to play piano and sing. I get too nervous that hit all the wrong keys.

♪SoNg SuGgEsTiOn Of ThE dAy♫:

Got You (Where I Want You) > The Flys

(Thanks Bree!)

Why Stay

I have had my heart set on buying a house for the past few months. Not that it is going to be anytime soon, at least four years, but I am trying to get on track to buy one. The first thing I have to do is pay off my student loan, and then save up a down payment. But tonight I had a thought: If, by the time I pay off my loan, I am not under any obligation to stay in the city, I may do something drastic ie: Move to NYC or LA. Quite frankly, I am over this awful climate. And with no one to keep me warm at night, why stay???

♫SoNg SuGgEsTiOn Of ThE dAy♪:

Heart Of Gold > Neil Diamond

Priorities

I'm sitting here listening to Band Of Horses and its kind of weirding me out because this time last year, they were my go-to band, and now I'm getting creepy nostalgic vibes. *Shiver* Moving on... I bought a Christmas tree today! Me and a friend went to Superstore and checked out some decorations, but the only Christmas thing that I bought was a tree. I need to take stock of my decorations and figure out what I need. I was in more of a home-stuff buying mood than I was in a Christmas mood. Not sure why. Maybe its because I've been cleaning out my apartment so much lately. Why do I have so much junk that I don't need, and not have any of the things that I do need?

Why do I have no dish soap, but 10 pairs of shoes that I never wear?
Why do I have an empty fridge but three shelves full of DVD's?
Why do I have a hundred pairs of earrings but only four pairs of socks?

These questions perplex me...

♪SoNg SuGgEsTiOn Of ThE dAy♪

The Funeral > Band Of Horses

Lost In Lost In You

I am in love with a song. Lost In You by Three Days Grace. I am figuring out my own instrumental arrangement of it and then I will post it on my YouTube music channel. Last night I played the piano until I had blisters on my pinky fingers.

SoNg SuGgEsTiOn Of ThE dAy: isn't it obvious...?

I ♡ CLOVERFIELD

True Story: It is almost midnight and I should be asleep right now because I have to get up at six to get ready for work, but instead of sleeping, I am lying in bed thinking about...how much I love the movie "Cloverfield".

Cloverfield has everything that I love in a movie. It:

1. Is set in New York City (I LOVE movies that are set in NYC)
2. Is scary (but not "I'm afraid to go to the bathroom alone" scary. Its just right. Its what I like to call "Deliciously scary. "30 Days of Night" is also deliciously scary)
3. Has a love story. Awwwww!
4. Is filmed "camcorder style". Feels real!
5. Has a comical narrator
6. Makes you think about what is important in life
7. Has a very attractive lead male and female
8. Mentions Coney Island, which is also the title of one of my favorite Death Cab songs.
Ok so now I'm just getting carried away.

Just watch it.

Reminisce <- I spelled that right on the first try!

For some reason I was really excited to come home from work and blog, even though I didn't really have anything interesting to blog about. I don't want to talk about work because I feel like when I'm not there, I need to focus on other things. So thats what I'm going to try and do.

So I came home and immediately went onto YouTube to update a few things. Confession: A long time ago ("Tell Me World..." January 7th, 2006) I blogged that I was going to use my Tim Hortons earnings to pay for singing lessons. That never happened. I did try though, but I was in school at the time and the lessons where really expensive and were going to be difficult to schedule and I had gotten rid of my car so I was going to have to bus there and it was just a big gong show. Fast forward from then to February 2010. A friend of mine had given me a microphone for my birthday, but I actually didn't get it until Christmas, which I'm still not sure how that happened...anyways. This friend encouraged me to record some music, and a few months later (Feb 2010) I wrote and recorded my first song!!! I was pretty excited because this was something totally new for me. Oh and also, about three years ago, after I got my first serving job (Yippee! It finally happened! Remember the Boston Pizza fiasco..."Rebirth" November 12th, 2005. Yeah I didn't get that job, but I got a different one two years later...) I ended up buying a pretty sweet digital portable grand piano. Combine that with the MacBook Pro that I did end up buying ("Hello World! Guess What?" May 16th, 2006... hey, this is kind of fun :) ) and voila! A little studio in my bedroom! So I have a YouTube account now and I post my new songs and stuff on there. So far, the feedback has been pretty great! The only problem is I am TERRIFIED of performing in front of people, which is the reason I stopped singing in the first place! Now work has caught onto my little hobby and apparently I am being forced against my will to perform at our staff AGM in February. I told my boss that I am scheduled to have H1N1 that day. We'll see how that pans out.

I don't really remember why I stopped blogging. Its not that I stopped logging my life away, I have countless word documents of my escapades, and I have been keeping some sort of journal or diary since... grade seven about (mind you, there are a few gaps)... maybe it was just easier when I was in school to use blogging as an excuse to take a break from studying. Who knows. I feel bad though. I went back and read everything and I had forgotten alot of stuff. And its cool to see what goals I had and what stuff what really important to me back then, and compare it to what actually worked out and what wasn't really that big of a deal. I will probably be referencing past entries in the next couple that I write so as to bridge that gap that is the last four and a half years. Stay tuned.

SoNg SuGgEsTiOn Of ThE dAy: Stars- The xx
(PS -I stopped doing these too somewhere along the lines...WTF I suck at consistency)
(PPS... or is it PSS..These may be mellow choices for the while, since I tend to blog before I go to sleep...:) Zzzzz.....

Ps: I Love [Gerard Butler]

Back In The Saddle

I'm definitely a different person than I was the last time I wrote on here, that is for sure! Its been almost four years and so much has changed. But some things haven't. One thing that has not changed is that I still HATE winter! I HATE HATE HATE IT! And now that it is November 14th, it is only a matter of time until I am trapped in a colorless snow-scape from which there isnoescape. Haha. So witty. I always try and make the most of it, but without a car, I usually end up barricading myself inside for days at a time, and after a while, I start to go crazy. So to cope, I am taking up blogging again. It seemed to help get me through before. Its something for me to look forward to. Even though no one reads it. So here it goes. Oh and there's another thing that hasn't changed....I'm still a lost realist.

SoNg SuGgEsTiOn Of ThE dAy: Colors - Amos Lee